She Is Far Away
By Rocketman

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She is far away tonight, as the machines make noises proclaiming her to
still be alive.

She is far away, in a place where her pain is nothing and her disease is
nothing, wherever it is that Mulder goes to when things get to be too
much and he needs to disappear for awhile.

She is quiet as he sits beside her, listening somewhat to his hurt and
trying to get away, to become detached.

She can't get far enough away from him, from  his selfishness, and his
need and his pain and his....

It is all his. It is all him, Mulder.

The world, it revolves around him as do the sun and moon and stars and
herself.

She wants to be far away but he keeps pulling her back in.

She is asking him to be silent for a little bit, he is embarrassed and
starts to get up.

"No," she is speaking.

She wants him with her in body and spirit but not in voice and demand.

He sits again with a half smile and takes her hand and is about to say
something, but remembers.

He remembers and shuts up.

She is smiling with a radiant smile that lights up the entire hospital
and could feed his soul for a million years.

He smiles back and leans into her bed and lays his head down on her
sheets and closes his beautiful eyes.

And his beautiful lashes glide across his beautiful face to rest on a
perfect cheek.

She leans down, places her hand in his hair and kisses his forhead
softly, gently.

She is not bleeding anymore, not from the heart or soul, and not from
the pain.

He sighs deeply and she realizes that her small silent action has healed
a million wrongs in his life.

"Mulder," she breathes and it is a heaven sent angel alighting to his
lips.

He kisses her delicate skin with reverence and lays his head back to her
bedsheets.

"Mulder," she says again.

His eyes finally turn on her, the full force of their intense sorrow
slicing through her.

She is pulling him up to sit on the bed and he does and holds her.

She is sighing and her breath is slowing, the machine counting her
downfall, her rise to grace to liberation.

He is holding her tightly as if to hold her down and he knows she
forgives him.

She is cold and shivering and he places his lips to hers and for one
last time, feels her warmth, meets her passion, breathes her last.

She is far away.

end of this series
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RocketMan